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I am doing swimming after the christmas holidays,

i've had forever to lose weight for it, but i haven't.

so i haven't got anyone to blame but myself.

Yesterday i had like 900 calories, so not a complete fail but its

nowhere near good enough if i want to lose a ton of weight for swimming.

I don't want to be the one looking fat in my swimming costume and feeling insecure the

whole time i am there, i want to be comfortable with my body.

quotes i love(L)

marylin monroe

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring."

"A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe, and leaves before she is left."

"If you can make a girl laugh, you can make her do anything."

"Well behaved women rarely make history."

Audrey hepburn

• For attractive lips,
  Speak words of kindness.
  For lovely eyes,
  Seek out the good in people.
  For a slim figure,
  Share your food with the hungry.
  For beautiful hair,
  Let a child run his/her fingers through it once a day.
  For poise,
  Walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone.
  People, even more than things,
  Have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed,
  And redeemed; never throw out anyone.
  Remember, if you ever need a helping hand,
  You will find one at the end of each of your arms.
  As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands;
  One for helping yourself, and the other for helping others.

I really enjoy having sex, and that's offensive to some people. Women are the quickest to call other women sluts, which is sad. I haven't met a lot of men who've said, "You like having sex? What a dirty whore you are!". That's because they wish their wives or girlfriends would have more sex with them.
~ Megan Fox

"My weight fluctuates constantly—I don't really take good care of myself. I just sort of exist and survive." - megan fox

"I come across as confident and [women] assume that means that I think I'm hot shit. And that makes them feel bad about themselves and so they hate me." - megan fox

"I hope they legalize [marijuana] and when they do I'll be the first fucking person in line to buy my pack of joints." - megan fox

“I always wear a matching set,a nice thong and a nice bra. I could'n wear underpant now.” cheryl cole

“My theory is that if you look confident you can pull off anything - even if you have no clue what you're doing.” Jessica Alba

"I'm good at being sarcastic with guys. They don't want the quiet, prissy little things." Jessica Alba.

"I like Spongebob Squarepants. He's goofy, like me." Jessica Alba.

"I love everything about fashion; it's an obsession for me. I also enjoy socialising, watching films and eating out at nice restaurants." " keeley Hazell

Yay, i cant count..

Guess what? i cant count!! When i said i weighed 121 pounds i really weighed 118... meaning i weigh 117 today. i am so happy that i cant add up right :)

So yeah 8 and a half stone is 117 pounds... right.?

i didn;t do too well today, i ate too much during school.

I havent done much exercise cos i have a headache..

So yeah i dont feel up too it.

Hope you guys, kept the calories below 1,000 unlike me.

im back on board.

Hey guys, i am actually back on board.

I have eaten okay, so far. i mean its only six o clock...

so im going to stay out of the kitchen so the calorie goodness does not temt me.

I also weight myself today, something i have been putting off for months.

I am 121 pounds.

So its obvious i have put on loads of weight since i started.

I weighed like 109 pounds and now im 121.

I lost control but hopefully im back on it.

Today :/

Breakfast: 1 apple ( 80 )

Lunch: Fudge thing ( 220)

Snack: Pineapple slices ( 86 )

Dinner: Salad, potatoes with chicken ( 400? )

Exercise: 30 minutes cardio exercise.

So its not great but its a start, if i eat less calories at lunch and dinner i'll be goood;)

ABC diet?

I think i will try the ABC diet.... It looks like it will have great results!

So Tomorrow i will eat 500 calories.

Its gonna be a challenge for me, but i know that some days you have to eat as low as 50! So its gonna get a lot harder. i've never eaten anything less than 500 calories before :/.

I doubt i will get any replies with this but anyone wanna do it with me?

U know like a buddy, to motivate each over, speak about how we have done, etc.

Let me know :)

XoXo

Im a fail

ill say it now as i have said it before. i am a fail, at everything. trying to be skinny, My family, school. Even making friends haha. I do have friends, I just am not good with new people. Anyway sorry for not Blogging for FOREVER. Like i have said many many times i am a fail.

And who wants to write about how much they stuff in there face each day & every day of the week? certainly not me.

Heres what i have eaten today. I have done terrible.

Breakfast- one banana 90 calories

Lunch- one panini ( 400? )

Snack- small fruit salad. ( 110 )

Dinner- porridge with a little bit of banana in ( around 300 )

Total: 905. ( including diet coke etc )

Exercise: None. Except from walking to and from school -50 and walking up stairs?

How was everybody's eating today? hope its not as bad as myn's is.

XoXo

Ok i suppose its time to get real?:

I am not making any promises but i really hope i am FUReal this time :)

4breakfast- As much fruit as i like, well in reason.
4lunch- A sandwich, with ice burg lettuce, chicken and cucumber.
4 dinner- chicken and vegetables.
4snacks- i will snack on celery stickss .:)
4 exercise- daily i will jog 5 minutes then do sets of lunges+squats And then do another 5minutes and so on. i will do this until i have reached 45 minutes.

Right all set.